Why a skull? Because i figured it out, why God is so stubbornly persisting to prod me. It is because i am stubborn and my skull is thick. God has to tell me a number of times that i need to learn something before i get it, i know what he's telling me, but i just decide that my ideas are better. In the last number of weeks i have been denying community very much, i don't really let people in, and i know the importance of it, of being accountable, like i've said before, i need to jump in somewhere. And why is it that I take so long to get there? i do not know.. There is a good chance though that I need to let go of some things, mostly my own thoughts, and how i think they are just a bit better than God's. It was mentioned in church today that some people are there own worst enemy, and that is me in more ways than one, i find that i don't have control over my own mind, and I can distract myself very, very easily. All that being said... "For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate." I can definatly sympathize with Paul here, it can be frusterating when I get caught up in it, but i know all i need to do is let God do His thing in me, and i hope to add water to this pot becuase it isn't always very formable.